Hannah at the margins (II) / Hermann, let me be the exception! "
New York, approximately 1949
[None of the people involved was ever invented. Or all of them.]
Hannah makes policy. Hermann makes "poetry".
Hermann will not "poetry" to make more, but politics.
Hannah says, Hermann was a true poet.
Hermann says he hate poets.
Hannah thinks its policy is not bad, but his novels are better to be on top! (Later - H. is dead now - she writes, he was a "poet reluctantly "...)
H. & H. 'meeting at a mutual friend (H. she will marry later, and yes, Hermann) , get to know each other. Hermann makes advances (as always). They say he always do. He had meanwhile times ... seven had love affairs simultaneously, or more. And one day he will always lose patience and make all concluded the same time. (It is said: he needs also / or. Above all / some tips - If the whole letter-writing, with the whole business correspondence, as it would indeed be nothing more, says Hermann, and I'm the little known U-ni-mediated salgenie! The Americans have just strapped does not mean that I am, and the others? - Not anyway ...) If the Hermann always flirting with women, has the psychological reasons then perhaps , asks this antiquated salon society that knows too that it is antiquated, and is already on a green branch , only: the one can not say out loud!
Hermann makes ran on Hannah. The thinking, but, but, Hermann, break! - Says: "Hermann can, They want me to be the exception "(to Hermann: confused moment, then goes to the order of: Ms. Hannah, we talk about human rights!)
Heinrich (Hs man, yes, yes, Hannah's husband married), who is unconcerned . And does business. Remember: In the living room but we have something of the upper hand, with such a marriage you can only win just yet. And I am a case for the annals.
Hermann breaks a leg later times, among others, and stays away a year locked away, old and tired and in bed. (May come in the hospital, as a gentle thought, I tell you ...) But no matter, I'll do the kisses on paper anyway (as has he said? Super sick of the poet without blood? - The "written kisses", which are not to be on the way ... "Drunk"? From the ghosts? The lover? - Hermann Oh, do not like that you've got in mind, the quote;'re the beautiful spirit of the past. And when you die, you die with all the Caste, I swear to you, are you: an institution!).
Hannah: Oh - now I'd have you ALMOST written a love letter! [H. & H. last a lifetime by "you". Why? - The fear like children, like rabbits, not to just give it! -]
Darauf der Hermann (der Analytiker): AHA – Sie wissen doch, wie das läuft. Das ist wie mit: „denken Sie jetzt BLOSS NICHT an einen Elefanten!“ – Und: Sehen Sie! Jetzt haben Sie schon an mich gedacht! - Und den Liebesbrief, den kann keiner leugnen.
– [Hermann: ich hab’ den Füllfederrüssel: ich spitz’ meine Waffen, rekrutier’ das Personal: mach mich ewig, mach mich international, schreib mich in die Verträge rein, in die UNO, in die Institutionen, die Diskussionen; man muss vorsorgen, das ist ein Menschenrecht!]
Hannah könnt’ die Krise kriegen. Immer soll sie alles aushandeln. Und einmal, because they get a - a single - with no hint, not driving time from all sensors, and already he is gooey, the Hermann: but already also a sensitive soul, but already too easy to bring up the wall, the Hermann. - The Hannah then tells the woman, the (now) wife of Hermann, and point out the not done, she writes: Ms. Hannah, not advice! The use I can not, I live with the trades for years and day, and not like me get small! [Think: I can do that alone. - I am miserable. The does not like me, and everyone knows it, everyone! - But I do not let the off the line, who married me will get to know me yet!]
Hannah makes the better again, with the intervention. Remember: If you want do what she wants! I have other skills, I do not have the "unrequited love" of his, which I have not ... tilt kitten, I am a figure of world, or world-class, or fame, world fame. - (Oh, she thinks, as I read the Martin - again, from the earlier, the man who already looks pretty good again, on TV.)
NY - Todtnauberg: Hello?
TODT - NY: ja-ja-ja!
NY .. do you want, right?
JT: Yes, yes I will, I will!
Hannah at Hermann: I can send him that [Want to say: the book of you] the book from you? -
That makes it the Hermann from nothing, as it must not ask but, yes, there should not even ask them. / I am a ship that is, I clawed the fame by express mail back to Europe. Back to - where I came from? - No, not me, just my ambitions! (I will not go back, what am I doing here - says my so-called woman: we make, we make beautiful, beautiful, we make ourselves the one in France, I tell you, if it were the sun rises above the vineyard, is there's no stopping -)
So send him the book from me, the world novel, novel of the world, yes, send him, Martin, because he can still learn something! [Talk but we do not, we never do, on the Martin, which is undecided identified that would 'only make everything to pieces, make us all broke, and we're ... so beautiful, at least;. so accurately, in a letter]
Whether they come to visit me in hospital? (I lie there already one - felt - half a year ... or decade, so: unable to move, so .. how to say worth-less, ... in-potent?)
But yes, it comes. By Henry halt there but they do, so much so far and good.
Oh Hannah and Henry, you can still talk, but where is the whole spiritual landscape so bare shorn flattened, front board head says Hermann.
Yes, of course, for sure , we are here and there: See, this is our wedding ring (says Henry, just Hannah, with the already not, but the connection : which is after all in the head . And not by the sausage fingers - Yes.. and)
That's the killer instinct. Or as they say? Oh yes, survival instinct. - After a year in hospital, I come out, but all, and then I'll start times yet, oh-oh, no no, no way, I have not stopped yet!. I was always at work.
What have been the one in Central Europe?
- - They have the values . Then your lost [Said Hermann]
But what then?
- - Yes, all containing. First the money.
?
- - Yes, first spend the money loses its value. Inflation. And then the heads or hands, yes, first the hands, because ... up up in the head is the total value loss not so moved. That was almost a ... imaginary affair.
Oh what?
- - Yes, yes.
Oh.
- - Na indicated.
Hannah: I do not like it when the ever makes his policies. I can not stand that. But those do I find him - and how to stay, but will he, in his literature. (But that is a dirty word, like - he - always says, "letters" - soldiers - grenades ...)
(Hermann: Women Building .. .. that they will maintain the upkeep. which is charged with going to France if they want, but I do, and I do not do well, do not notice, go not to, but ... do something, write something, make something, make me: a must -)